So Im going to try this 365 thing again!

ABAD 3b:365, originally uploaded by *redmara*.

Some people do this project picking just one doll to photograph all year. I have too many of them and would feel bad leaving most of them out all year.

So I started on Saturday (I would have started on my birthday but with the flood and all I had no computer till Sat). This is day 3 but I just wanted to share. Ill be posting pics here and there as I take them.

Observations of a fat girl...

Ive been overweight most of my life (I had a 3 year skinny period from the age of 23-26). I have struggled with eating disorders, and just regular bad eating habits. Im also a super picky eater and love nothing more than sitting on the couch reading a good book (or eating a tub of ice cream).

Last year my DH showed me this IMAGE of a body scan comparing a 250lb woman to a 120lb woman (warning it's pretty graphic). It did actually scare the living crap out of me. So on Jan first we went on a diet together. I started going to Zumba and watching what I ate. I did really really well for 3 months then pretty much stopped.

I started back up in Oct and to date Ive lost ~25lbs this year.

Which is great.

And soooo not enough. Im still considered morbidly obese. So I started really paying attention to skinny people. Most of them do one or all of these things: They eat yogurt for snacks, they do pilates or yoga and almost every single one of them run.

I hate yogurt, I can't touch my toes, but I figure even my 2 year old nephew can run so I figured, no more excuses. Im going to do it. Bad knees and all. It aint going to be pretty but luckily it gets dark early so hopefully I won't scare too many of my neighbors.

Im doing the couch to 5k program with the goal of actually running in a 5k this spring. The goal isn't to win or even to run super fast, I just want to finish.

So there I said it out loud. In public. So Im accountable.

I started tonight. Its 55 and drizzling and I did it. I went out and did the first days program (28 minutes of exercise 8 minutes of that is running).

And you know what. It felt pretty good

Oh and a huge thanks to La for sharing her super inspirational journey! If I can be half as dedicated as she is I will consider this a success

Thanks for letting me share.

TILT 19 - Poppys for Remembrance Day

In honor of Remembrance/Veteran's day 11/11. Thank you to all of the men and women around the world who have given their lives in defense of country!

In Flanders fields the poppies grow
Between the crosses, row on row,
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.

We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
Loved and were loved, and now we lie,
In Flanders fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
The torch; be yours to hold it high.
If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep, though poppies grow
In Flanders fields.

--"In Flanders Fields" John McCrae